Tremendously blessed!
Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.~Elizabeth Stone
I have read this quote so many times in the last 6 months and each time it made me smile. But today it made me cry.
Yathaarth had a fall from the bed, and it all happened before I could blink my eye. I stood there powerless and incapable as I watched his head hit the ground. I had to pull myself together and it was almost like there was this 'someone’ that pushed me to get going. I scooped him and hugged him trying to soothe him. He cried, like never before. Yathaarth hardly cries, he is a content and easy to please baby and to watch him do this, almost killed me. I felt responsible, damn I shouldn’t have let him on the bed, even if it just meant for like half a second!!!I know it happens, their children they are bound to get hurt and bump their heads, blah blah, but goodness, this was my baby, and he hit his head on the floor right in front of my eyes!!!Tears were flowing down mercilessly as the visual kept replaying in my mind!
I managed to shriek for Vivek. This was the first time in my life that I opened my mouth to speak but I couldn’t say a word. I soon realized that Yathaarth was bleeding from his lower lip, this was enough to make my head go spinning. I continued my best to calm Yathaarth but he was in pain and more in shock. Meanwhile Vivek packed all our stuff. Finally after Vivek’s brother Prakaash picked Yathaarth up and took him for a walk outside, he quietened.
We rushed to the nearest ER. By this time Yathaarth was calm and beginning to even gaze outside the window. The doctors certified that my son was perfectly ok. I think I couldn’t get myself to believe that. I thanked them and I was hoping for some kind of signal from Yathaarth to tell me he is ok. A smile? Some of his baby talk? Something?!!Anything!!!!
We walked back to the car. A bunch of goats walked past our car and Yathaarth starts his baby jargon – MMMa,PPPpa,indhooo,undhaa,dhaaa,gaaaa and a whole bunch of them…I hugged him, he was startled by my sudden display of affection.
We drove back home in silence,listening to my baby’s lil snores and feeling tremendously blessed and thankful to God and our guardian angels for protecting our son - our life.
I still remember the day when I sat and cried like a baby when I saw that Yathaarth had developed nappy rashes. This was about 5 months ago. I agree, I do have to get over this ‘panicking for the drop of the hat phenomenon’-immediately.But its just so difficult to put up a brave front when your baby is in pain,it hurts equally,maybe more?
I know that this is just the beginning for my baby. The beginning of his falls, bumps, scraps,maybe even sutures and fractures (god forbid!!),heartbreaks, break ups, let downs and failures.
I just ask God, at this moment to give me the strength to stand by him through all of this and more throughout his life.
Doesn’t Motherhood have a very humanizing effect? Everything gets reduced to mere essentials.(borrowed from Meryl Streep)
Ps: Vivek, I am blessed to have you as my better half. I couldn’t have gotten through THIS day without you.I don't think I could get through ANY day without you!!!
I have read this quote so many times in the last 6 months and each time it made me smile. But today it made me cry.
Yathaarth had a fall from the bed, and it all happened before I could blink my eye. I stood there powerless and incapable as I watched his head hit the ground. I had to pull myself together and it was almost like there was this 'someone’ that pushed me to get going. I scooped him and hugged him trying to soothe him. He cried, like never before. Yathaarth hardly cries, he is a content and easy to please baby and to watch him do this, almost killed me. I felt responsible, damn I shouldn’t have let him on the bed, even if it just meant for like half a second!!!I know it happens, their children they are bound to get hurt and bump their heads, blah blah, but goodness, this was my baby, and he hit his head on the floor right in front of my eyes!!!Tears were flowing down mercilessly as the visual kept replaying in my mind!
I managed to shriek for Vivek. This was the first time in my life that I opened my mouth to speak but I couldn’t say a word. I soon realized that Yathaarth was bleeding from his lower lip, this was enough to make my head go spinning. I continued my best to calm Yathaarth but he was in pain and more in shock. Meanwhile Vivek packed all our stuff. Finally after Vivek’s brother Prakaash picked Yathaarth up and took him for a walk outside, he quietened.
We rushed to the nearest ER. By this time Yathaarth was calm and beginning to even gaze outside the window. The doctors certified that my son was perfectly ok. I think I couldn’t get myself to believe that. I thanked them and I was hoping for some kind of signal from Yathaarth to tell me he is ok. A smile? Some of his baby talk? Something?!!Anything!!!!
We walked back to the car. A bunch of goats walked past our car and Yathaarth starts his baby jargon – MMMa,PPPpa,indhooo,undhaa,dhaaa,gaaaa and a whole bunch of them…I hugged him, he was startled by my sudden display of affection.
We drove back home in silence,listening to my baby’s lil snores and feeling tremendously blessed and thankful to God and our guardian angels for protecting our son - our life.
I still remember the day when I sat and cried like a baby when I saw that Yathaarth had developed nappy rashes. This was about 5 months ago. I agree, I do have to get over this ‘panicking for the drop of the hat phenomenon’-immediately.But its just so difficult to put up a brave front when your baby is in pain,it hurts equally,maybe more?
I know that this is just the beginning for my baby. The beginning of his falls, bumps, scraps,maybe even sutures and fractures (god forbid!!),heartbreaks, break ups, let downs and failures.
I just ask God, at this moment to give me the strength to stand by him through all of this and more throughout his life.
Doesn’t Motherhood have a very humanizing effect? Everything gets reduced to mere essentials.(borrowed from Meryl Streep)
Ps: Vivek, I am blessed to have you as my better half. I couldn’t have gotten through THIS day without you.I don't think I could get through ANY day without you!!!
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