Happy 4th birthday my dashing hero!


We were looking at our wedding album when you are so puzzled - you ask me "So,was I at Amammma's house?Why am I not there in this picture? "Oh my darling - You weren't born then.Yes,there was a life before you were born - really! I worked full time,I traveled,shopped,read,watched movies lazily with your Dad,played cricket om the road with friends in the apartment,read some more,spent time with friends.And then you my darling - Yathaarth happened and something changed inside me forever!

I always pout my lips when I am trying my best to focus and concentrate and the last night when I was trying to finish up the Cup cake stand I was so happily doing for your birthday,you coolly walk up and say"Amma,thats so funny" and I ask what and you say "your lips,the way you do that".I laugh,you hug me tight.The same evening I bite my lip with utter joy when I watch you clean your race car,with pouting lips and deep focus.For I see me.I see a very small me but with a larger heart.

 My lovely baby,you are such a big boy now and there are somethings that make you so special,so unique,so YOU!

  •  The way you ALWAYS want to pet a doggie on the road
  •  The way you say Appa,ONE MORE TIME! 
  •  The way you hug me and ask me to sit down and calm myself when I do seem upset. 
  •  The way you draw and the stories you say to accompany the pictures you draw 
  •  The way you jump to apologise if you have unknowingly broken a rule
  •  The way you absolutely totally freak out when your dress gets wet or dirty
  •  The way you walk up to a stranger and can pick off a conversation!(I watched you with my heart clutched tightly when way you were animatedly explaining about the 4 gifts you got from Santa because your turning 4 on January 3rd to this absolute stranger lady,who obviously was so happy to be talking to you,or how you randomly wished people happy new year at our New year lunch at a restaurant and what a jouyous double take they took!). 
  • The way you say,"Amma I think thats not fair"
  • The way you throw away your toy or puzzle with exasperation when they just dont seem to fit
  • The way you always pull Appa and me for a family hug 
  • The way you appreciate me for my cupcakes 
  • The way your eyes twinkle when I come to pick you from school
  • The way you say"Amma,i think I am feeling shy" 


 You are not what I wanted,but you are beyond all of what I ever wanted,You are magic!
 We love you,too much!

 Love,
 Amma

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