Good,bad and the ugly.

There are these days when everything is perfect and you love life.
Then there are the days when, well,you console your self saying - its really ok,its just a bad day.

Then of course there are the days when, you know,things get so bad,they turn ugly and you just wanna run away.

Sigh.Last night, was not a great night.Yathaarth cried and cried and cried the whole night(almost!) and I have NEVER seen him cry so much in these 11 months that I have raised him.I tried and did everything to make him feel better.I was getting restless and began to feel helpless.I lost my patience too soon perhaps,I yelled at him and I wanted to disappear after I realized what I did.

When I apologized to him this morning after his morning wash he sat and listened to me like he knew what I was saying and then gave me the 'longest' and the 'sloppiest' ever kiss to me.Then we hugged,for a long time.Sigh.I feel so rotten.

He hit the bed at 8 pm tonight as usual,but he seems still a lil disturbed.
No,i cannot stand to watch another night of my son weeping,it digs a damn big hole in my heart.

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